Lady Gaga Finally Speaks Out About Being Sexually Assaulted By A Producer

Lady Gaga has been very vocal about her new, album called Chromatica. She said from the start that the album will be about her journey of healing from pain, whether that pain stems from her experience with depression, PTSD, fibromyalgia, or past breakups. Now that the album is finally here, we learn from the track “Free Woman” that the pain she referred to also includes surviving sexual assault.

“I was sexually assaulted by a music producer,” Gaga said in an interview with Zane Lowe for Apple Music, while explaining the song. “It’s compounded all of my feelings about life, feelings about the world, feelings about the industry, what I had to compromise and go through to get to where I am. And I had to put it there. And when I was able to finally celebrate it, I said, ‘You know what? I’m not nothing without a steady hand. I’m not nothing unless I know I can. I’m still something. If I don’t get a man, I’m a free woman.’

Because even though I really have a tremendous disdain for people that attribute a gender, or sexual identity to your personality…it was so important for this to be ‘Free Woman

She continued, ‘’Look at me. I found gratitude and everything is zen.’ It’s, ‘I no longer am going to define myself as a survivor, or a victim of sexual assault. I just am a person that is free, who went through some fuc*** up shit,'” she said. “I say, ‘This is the dance floor I fought for. That’s what I’m living for. Light up my body and kiss me too hardly. I walk the downtown, hear my sound.’ This is my way of saying, ‘I’m making a dance record again, and this dance floor, it’s mine, and I earned it. And all that stuff that I went through, I don’t have to feel pain about it anymore. It can just be a part of me and I can keep going.'”

I still work on myself constantly. I have bad days, I have good days

And just because Gaga made Chromatica, a high-energy album of dance hits, as a way of coping with her pain, that doesn’t mean she’s entirely healed from the things that have hurt her. “And by the way, I’m not standing over here with a flag going, ‘I’m all healed, everything’s perfect.’ It’s not; it’s a fight all the time.’’ 

Check out the full song below: